ramirez jr.

park, ice cream, a killer wipe out and a bumped head = a good friday

8-Bit

You have to check this out!

The best part is the slideshow...the commentary at the bottom of each photo is also equally hilarious

This one is by far my favorite aptly titled "Game Over for Good First Impressions"




enjoy!

http://www.asylum.com/2008/09/23/nintendo-tattoos-classic-8-bit-inspired-ink/?icid=aimDBDL2_link1-a

blowski <3

hating stuff

i'm extremely frustrated right now...unfortunately i wish i could say it was just at one thing but it's so many things all balled up into a voltron of crappity crap

i broke down and cried at practice tonight...
my leg won't let me do what i want it to, and there isn't any time for it to get any better.

having been injured twice in the last 2 months i have really let my fitness go and it's showing.
i feel fat, i feel weak, i feel tired

to top it all off, my lack of employment has left me apathetic and i really want to do nothing all the time...
i'm probably a little depressed too.

i can name only a couple of things that make me happy right now...and at least 2 of those are mildly stressful.

derby is supposed to be my solace...it's supposed to be my retreat...something i'm good at that i can just do...

i can't just do it right now and it's bumming me out...

maybe it's my period...maybe it's my need for a personal pity party...
i'm sure i'll be fine tomorrow...
i hate it...and i want to cry...well cry some more...

this past weekend

i'm still reeling...i have a lot of stuff going on in my head...
between derby, school and personal stuff...i can't wrap my brain around any complete thoughts

more later but...

highlights
-beating the number one team in the country by 100+pts
-liars danceparty (naked guy & shawnzie are by far my favorite)
-meeting some great people from KC
-finding my calling as the singer in Rock Band
-hour long talks in my car
-kai's turtle song

flowers

cause sometimes you have to do something nice for yourself

they're coming...

kansas city is coming...the number one team in the county!
in less than 2 days i will be skating in one of the most pivotal games of my roller derby career.
this is a test...a test to see what type of progress we have made since last year.
a good marker for how we are sizing up for regionals...

i'm nervous and excited...tonight it's going to be hard to sleep...tomorrow will probably be worse.

the last couple of practices have been amazing, everyone has been pushing their bodies to the limits and wonderful things have been happening

kansas city might want this win but i can see it in my teams eyes...we want it MORE...

happy monday

while flipping through the "Happy Days Where Are They Now?" i stumbled across Chuck Cunningham (Richie's older brother who mysteriously disappears after season 1 with no explanation). in the spiel about him they briefly mention he will be staring in the sequel to the descent! excuse me...sequel...oh man!

i have no idea how i didn't know about this but since the movie is hands down one of my favorite flics i am WAY excited...it's set to come out next year and i can't wait...

read more here

<3

tag you're it...

20 years ago... i was 5..i went to preschool at "love and care". a year earlier a philipino kid named richie almost stabbed me in the eye with a pencil at the same place. we we're fighting over the strawberry shortcake one...apparently he wanted it more. had he been a better shot i might be blind in one eye, but instead i wound up with a lead dot on the side of my nose.

10 years ago... i was 15 almost 16 and went to an all girls school. this was the year i became a skinhead. i was a punk rocker. i had a shaved head with two long pieces in the front and was mistaken for a skinhead girl by a gas station attendant. i thought he was cute and my friend erin gave him my number. turns out he was 21 and i lied to him and told him i was 18. we started dating and he got me into the whole skinhead scene. i cut the two long fronts into bangs and my chelsea was born. i later revealed that i was 15 but it didn't seem to be a problem (ha!), he even went to my junior prom and went on to be the first boy i ever fell in love with. i ran with a crew of girls, got into a lot of fights and never came home on time. i'm pretty sure this was also the same year that i met andre for the first time. though we wouldn't get entangled in one another's lives until 3 years later...

5 Years ago...i was twenty going on twenty one..straightedge, hardcore and my friends were the only things that mattered. i was in college but i didn't care much about it...i'm pretty sure i was dating someone from lake in the hills...this time line gets fuzzy in my mind.

3 Years ago...this was the year i met the windy city rollers and belle diablo was born. anyone who knows me knows that roller derby would become an obsession with me that would eventually get me through one of the most insane freak outs of my life (read more below). i love it and hate it all at the same time, but i have become such a better person for having it in my life. i would probably end there because i have a horrible memory and i can hardly remember anything that happened yesterday much less 3 years ago. in an effort to be more insightful, i often have to reference things with e-mails or journals to try and figure out what i was doing in certain years. actually, that's one of the reasons i started this blog.

So while trying to do this, i came across my old livejournal and it just happened to be really active 3 years ago. apparently i was an emotional wreck...ha. reading these for the early half of 2005 makes me look insane, not only that, completely obsessed with someone. I can easily pick out who most of these posts are about...the following year this all culminates into one of the most insane winters of my life...where a lot of these feelings come full circle and chaos ensues and ultimately why i withdraw from anything hardcore related and throw myself into roller derby. this dramatic entry is one of my favorites...

fucked on the fourth of july...
i'm giving up on everything because everything is giving up on me...

it's not the rain talking...
the worst thing is trying to be over someone and realizing you can't do it...
trying to be genuinely into someone else...
because maybe you two have some things in common...
and he has a pretty stellar smile...
but even looking at him...makes you think of that other person..
and then you realize you aren't fooling anyone...
not even yourself...
so you do the things you said you wouldn't...
you call even though you said you shouldn't...
and you realize what an idiot you have become...
and you figure that they will always have this effect on you...
so you stand in the rain...
stare at the sky...
ask god to let lightening strike you...
anything to make you not feel like you are as worthless as they make you feel...

and i ask the question...
am i good for anything?
and i give myself the answer...
good for the things people don't talk about...
i'm good for secrets...

and that's when i give up...

ha

Yesterday...got home around 5:30-6 in the am...snuck up my stairs and couldn't help but be in a good mood but also tired as hell. slept until 10 (record for me these days). had an interview *crosses fingers* and decided to meet up with someone special for lunch. we split pad thai and i was reintroduced to sushi and currently love asparagus, avocado and cucumber rolls. it should also be noted that i had the hugest glass of thai ice tea. i bummed around for a while after that and then got ready for practice. coming off a shitty practice on thursday where i basically lost it, i wasn't looking forward to another night of bullshit. but i was pleasantly surprised and it wound up being amazing! it was good to be with motivated people who wanted to get things done. the drills went off without a hitch and i feel like we made some real strides just in time for our game next week and gearing up to try and take the #1 spot in the east...

Tomorrow...scrimmage at 9:30am in preparation for regionals. the rest is up in the air...lazy sunday here i come

If you want to play this game...your read it, so now you write about it

it's official

1. back 2 school (somehow not as cool as the rodney dangerfield movie)
2. i need a haircut
3. i make the same face in every picture (money wasted on braces...check!)
   

Do It Up Denver

i went to denver for the weekend

denver is filled with hippies...i don't think i could live there
we won our bout but had to combat some of the worst reffing to get anything accomplished
missed my flight on sunday...had to be a transient for a day...home never looked so good
the denver zoo is awesome
never go to the bump and grind when you are in a bad mood...they make you hate your life

took tons of flics..a sample is below but the rest are here











less than 2 weeks until the kansas city game...ugggh

There's More Than Mountains in Denver

Bump and Grind - Denver, CO

feeling

sentimental and burdened...


more later...

lolz