you know

smoking popes "i need you around"

insomnia

toss
turn
repeat

can't
turn
off
my
brain

thinking
of
what
i'd
say

toss
turn
repeat

this
is
bad
for
business

baby it's cold...

it's getting to be the point of ridiculousness outside with the weather. for the past couple of days it has been insanely cold, super bitter and with the sun only out for 5 hours a day, you basically put your life into the hands of fate that you will withstand frostbite as you leave the warm confines of your home.

lots of things i would like to be doing outside but i feel relatively unequipped...i guess i have the basic elements but this might be the year i invest in a thermal body suit to wear underneath everything i own. i used to be a relative hot box...like i could easily get away with the bare minimal during the winter and not have it matter. anyone who has ever slept next to me would laugh at this whole thing because i'm a human furnace come bed time, but as i've gotten older, my skin must be getting thinner because i can't escape feeling so cold on the outside that it breaks the barriers to my insides.

as we speak i just complained to my mom that it was too cold in the house...the thermostat says like 77 at this point and i want it at 85.

in an effort to ward off the cold weather and look fashionable while doing so i made this purchase tonight. charlie said the plaid was ill but tried to get me to buy a down coat instead...i like this one though so i stuck with it. i was set on the brown but on further inspection at REI with mickey it was determined that the black was a better choice...of course they didn't have my size...the medium wouldn't fit over my boobs...so i had to order it online...only a week or so until total warmness.


till then i'm still on the lookout for the perfect glove/scarf/mittens set...but like i said i think at this point i might need a whole face mask set up to battle this god damned wind...

oh chicago...
time to hibernate...
LOTR marathon here i come...

mumble mumble

hot bath
booth's lavender mineral soak
hate.contempt.hate.
no more worries...
dio during cold shower
my ipod knows me too well

at random
interpol - narc
depeche mode - behind the wheel
erykah badu - orange moon
nada surf - your legs grow
the killers - jenny was a friend of mine
the strokes - under control
mxpx - destroyed by you
oasis - shakermaker
dio - holy diver

sweet little lies

shooezzzz

sometimes the vans vault impresses me and i have to go on these scavenger hunts to find the shoes i want. for months these shoes have been elusive to me on the nerd...i suppose i could do some more in depth hunting but i'm too lazy for such things...

so as i was sitting here and lurking blogs i came across a link to a site where you could purchase shoes from the vans vault...it jogged my memory that i was still on the look out for these lovely ladies above and so i clicked on it thinking i'd still be SOL on the niagara front...

sooooo this blog started out with me finding these shoes but only in japan and wishing i knew how to convert their monopoly money into our real money to see the price. i also wasn't having any luck with their hieroglyphics so majorly bummed cause, as i said before, i've searched the nerd in vein for these and come up short...

but i thought i would give it one more try...
turns out...i found them!
in colorado...on sale...and in a 8.5 which i'm hoping is a mens size
although...i usually wear a mens 8 i could easily settle for a little big to have these...

crossing my fingers

these moon eyes in black and white are next on my list

merry xxxmas to me!

approaching a decade

i couldn't really remember what year I got into hardcore. as a skinhead i listened to some crossover, warzone, sick of it all, cro mags, you know standard nyhc type stuff. i distinctly remember amy hong getting me into gorilla biscuits before i had ever stepped foot into an actual hardcore show but with my bad memory i fell short of knowing when it all came together. i still can't remember my first show although i am sort of convinced it was a rts show in wisconsin.

so i went riffling through some pictures to jog my memory but also in an effort to find one in particular for steve kane that highlights his awesome hair dye choices. the oldest picture i had was from a show at the fireside in 1999 which i'm pretty sure was a no justice show...i only scanned things 2001 and before...some from shows...some from social events that have people in them i hardly ever or never see anymore...but i feel as though a lot of what i documented is missing....

then again i do have about 40 rolls of film that have never been developed...i can only imagine the gems in there...

Chicago Hardcore

oh...and if you're so inclined...the byrd years

oi oi